Uno

I am only one. But there are so many expectations that people want me to fufill. But I cant. Cause im only one. Its just like how each day has 24 hours and i can only spend it with some. Why cant people just understand. Why cant they realise that I need my time too.

Bread and Butter

Maybe its just not supposed to be this way.

What if what we always used to think what was right was actually wrong. What if life purposely wants to screw with us and make us learn. Maybe its just like this post’s title, its bread and butter of life. we learn from downfalls and they are not neccessarily negative.

Theres gonna be lots to talk about during SWOT.

if you say so.

well, i guess i have been very busy with council, ocip, pw. but I finally could take a break today. From everything. I just slept the whole day, played icy towers and just came back from running. i feel recharged. ready to face the challenges of tomorrow. which is actually council and ocip. You would just know that things will be alright in the end. With the small random perks of what dave calls ” my fishes”, I guess things would really be alright. It was a rollercoaster ride, i used to be struggling with it but now im enjoying it.

As we gear up for graduation night, the immense pressure of having to make it the best night for the J2s plummet on us again. I guess we are go-getters, always wanting to outdo ourselves, going beyond the limit. Thats what i like about SA. there are no boundaries. That wednesday, I was astounded at what a big number 591 could be. Imagine on the 4th when its showtime, the people, the dazzle. Its making me dizzy enough.

OCIP. india. sounds exotic enough. Im enthralled to go there. It was the SA thing again, exploring the limits that attracted me to participate and im glad to say it has been a good experience. the cake baking, the cake selling ( sory guys for not being able to be there today), the DVD watching ( hannah in the ugly truth) and so on and so forth. Well, im hoping for an even better experience on 23rd itself. i just cannot wait for the plane and train ride. Its gonna be awesome, i tell you.

and to sum up the previous week, baby dinosaurs do dance

unforgettably forgotten

You just cannot get the same feeling back.

Im AW SM

I just realise that when people grow up, they face more problems. GRAH STUPID SORE EYES.

SHINGZ

gah, i did an emo post and it disappeared! rah. okay well i guess this is a sign from up above to tell me not to write emo stuff! oh man. im doing the 18 surprises. hahaha. alot of work!

I need more eyerollers.

Im getting more and more tired each day. Gah. Dont know why though. I just want to find one day to sleep. sleep my day away.

one tbsp italian herbs, one handful of sliced onions

oh man. i guess this horrible week is over. gp, chem econs. just flew by like that.

after econs today i felt so withdrawn. I could not talk to people about the exam because they will all just feel that i have done better than them and I would make them worry so much. But you know what, I’m human. I make mistakes and I’m not that perfect. Just because I did well in the past few occasions does not render me being able to do that again right? When i came to school, I saw xinyi’s expression. that scoff, like I was going to do damn well really turned me off. Why cant anyone understand. I doubt anyone will, cause I dont even understand myself. It just sucks damn bad cause people have that expectation for you and you have to live up to it. And its not only them, your parents who will just make your life worse if your results are not on par. truthfully, i did not performed that well. I did overall okay only. Maybe i know how jia liang feels now when everyone just not discuss the exams stuff with him after the paper. oh man. sorry dude, didn know what you were going through last time.

i’ve been getting flashbacks of the past these few weeks and i realised i have grown. from this immature kid to someone who just keeps to himself. I was loud, laughed alot and did lots of crazy stuff but now ive grown so quiet. Maybe its just reality. Its like , pardon me for using the geog, the impact of hydraulic action on the river banks. You come to a sudden realisation like, hey life isnt just all about fun. Life used to be my friend. my best buddy. someone i could joke with but now life is just an unknown stranger whom I would just walk past by in the street.

screw this, im just not sleeping enough.

last stretch: final shot

Its the last stretch to the promos. left a few days before facing the first paper. GP. I didn really prepare it though so this time i feel abit more insecured. I do hope the stuff that i will be doing tmrw would actualy help and all. im gonna gonna gonna gonna gonna get more As!

My Promo Expectations: targeted down during midyears.

Chemistry: A
Maths: A
Econs: B
Geog: B

But it seems so impossible.

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