Why do you want to grow up so fast?

hey. back from genting. i think i will leave the details for the next post cause i am so filled with thoughts they are practically spilling out. haha. i am sort of shocked by everything when i came back. i guessed i just got shooked by reality real hard. looking at what i saw and read, some people just cannot wait to grow up. maybe its cause they have enough of the small kiddy stuff and they want to spread their fully fledged wings of freedom and soar into the sky. but i believe that one day you will ever regret stepping out of the cage. cause i  still like to be naive and innocent and i still want to be. i know the horrors of the world and i want to not know it and stay happy just of small little things. you may think that i am immature and childish. tell you what. I dont care. cause that is how i want to be. like, why start drinking now? come on la. even if you want to have a real taste of adulthood, casual drinking is good enough. wait. i am not making any sense. i guess that’s brain spillage bahs.

I just want to be the kid that i am really am. cause i can only be 16 once.

Reunion Dinner.

just came back from the reunion dinner at jurong east. super full. cause you know why? My mum prepared two different stocks for the steamboat, the tomyam one and the plain stock. so we had two tables. i was jumping around the two tables. haha, cause there were different ingredients too. it was like a marathon and i took my time. sat at the tables for around 1 hour 40 minutes. and to top it off the television was right in front so its like eating and enjoying rush hour II. haha. i think i like my extended family even more now. with the uncles and aunties. and plus the younger cousins. everyone must join wah town council!. lol Terence is the Chairman! lol. haha. i am in a super good mood now la.

My brother and sister can be irritating at times but we sometimes we really bond and i think i will never  ever trade them off for anyone else. we often come up with silly phrases like for example, my sister would say” i think…..” my brother would always say” u think, i assume, who confirm” lol. its irritating but come to think of it quite funny sometimes. and there is the word u will hear us use everyday.” chicky” i donnoe what it exactly means but my dog is given that nick. and also when used in a sentence ” walau. he so chicky..” something like that. haha. and to top it off my brother tells super lame jokes. really really cold so ya. get him to tell you the red riding hood wan. i tell you its super super super cold.

and like during arguments. i would usually say aiya 每个人都不够睡，现在去睡。that sort of stuff. so its super funny. lol. nvm, i guess i am lauging to myself.

I just drank two cans of green tea.

pokka.

i think i really think too much when i am tired. i become dillusioned. suspicious. wary of others.

the layer of trust that was the crust of the friendship has become thinner.

( rhymes huh.)

but when i wake up its like everything is fine again. i am back to the energizer self. maybe i should sleep more. as if i have not been sleeping enough. but seriously though i think i really need sleep if not i will not be myself. will be going to genting tomorrow and i really hope to enjoy myself there even though i think i will be alone. =(

still trying to convince my parents to allow me to bring the labtop there though and then i would be able to sit at starbucks and post.wahaha. but my dad seems reluctant. i think i am going to fill my thursday and friday up so i can fully make use of the last few days of holidays. no more curfews. and even there is i don’t care cause enough is enough.  just let me enjoy the last few days of the holidays.

looking back at the holidays i realise that I didn’t accomplish much as 3/4 of the holiday was spent on working. all the projects that i wanted to do was uncomplete.=(. JC life is starting in one week’s time. unprepared. i don think alot of marists put the same first choice as i did. and most probably there will be a change in CCA. I kind of really regret cause i lost hope in appeals in the middle of JAE. but thinking about it now i really should have tried. its no harm actually. i dreamt of learning dizi from lim sin yeo at the esplanade concert hall. just the two of us in such a big place. cool huh. lol.

Just sleep and die.

i think i have been thinking too much. maybe trust is really what i need. but do you know that is something which is very difficult for me. i need time.

I just realise that time is the essence of everything.time is the remedy.

Free fisherman for all. =D

maybe the thing about life is how you think about it. separate yourself from that box that you are focusing yourself upon. take a step away from yourself and look back. maybe theres something good at least.

Enterprise

Thanks xiao zhu! for the comments on how it should turn out. wahaha my first masterpiece lol. and this is a present for xiao zhu. one of the presents anyway for may 15. =)

well for those who are super clueless, the story is that i am inspired to sell t shirts as in with my own design la. so yea, i have been observing people with their shirts and all. so yupps. i have also personalised shirts for some people, like for example julian lim.

i noe the design super simple, but this are still rough sketches and i have not finalised it. took like 5 minutes. lol. so, maybe i will upload the final designs when i have decided on how to edit.=)

Sun and Moonlight.

Human idealogy.

There’s a crack

if u tear a paper into half, there would still be a crack no matter how u patch it back.

get it?

my eyelids have been twitching.

I know its lame, but just do for the fun of it,

so i have here 10 questions about me, and ya see how well you know me.=)

1. Melvin is a sucker for?

A. Sleep
B. Caffeine
C. TV
D. Food

2. Melvin’s favourite kueh is?

A. Lapis Sagu from Bengawan Solo
B. Kueh Lapis
C. Gado- Gado

3. Melvin is a?

A. Taurus
B. Capricorn
C. Libra
D. Leo

4. what is melvin’s pet word/ phrase

A. Super super
B. hah
C. walau
D. lol

5. what is melvin’s most guilty indulgence

A. Coconut Milk.
B. Chocolates
C. Ice Cream
D. Cookies

6. who in coffeebean does melvin hates most?

A. himself
B. kenny
C. hakimah
D. the customers.

7. Melvin supports?

A. Joe Biden
B. Barack Obama
C. John Mccain
D. Hilary Clinton

8. Melvin is currently singing?

A. aliana lohan- all the way around.
B. chew sin huey- ni mei xiang xiang zhong ai wo
C. Hero- charlotte perelli
D. ABC- the pipettes.

9. Melvin whenever come online will check which first?

A. Log in to Msn
B. Check Blog
C. Go Facebook
D. Read blogs.

10. So what is uncle wah’s name? ( bonus question hor.)

A. Terence
B. Nikki
C. Kelly
D. Darren

I will never fall for the same mistake again

i just realised that there are two types of friendships in this world. the simple one or the super super complicated one. well for me, i prefer my friendships to be simple. i mean its like. why make it so complicated and in the end, end up with so many misunderstandings. that is so unnecessary. really. and this few days looking at how other people handled their friendships really made me think through mine. i am glad to have friends that really understand what i need. and when i need it. kudos to julian lim and jarrell teo. and probably samual shing. lol.

i am starting to grow up. seriously. i have become more independent. previously i used to only go out with friends but now i can go out alone. as in I do not have to wait for someone to go out with me. because i realise that i am not alone. i have david archuleta, lady gaga, craig david, leona lewis, breaking benjamin, muse, the pipettes, westlife all accompanying me. lol. ya la. its lame. lol.

this few days have been super super boring. have been staying at home and pei-ing lao po. but she also sleep whole day so i got nothing much to do. I was thinking of doing YFC again, but i really need to find team members and i don want to be the leader again. anyone? check out www.youthforcauses.com for more details and then leave me a note if you interested to join me. but warning ar, its tough. really tough. well, this few days no mood to blog so ya, i think you should be able to know.